Finally, after four years and a few month, I'm able to go further, to let go of things, of things that used to make me happy - but during the past few years come to make me sad or upset. It's better this way. You can't turn back time. I dunno how often I have to experience that, until I finally UNDERSTAND it. But well, at my lowest points I always use to find... something... that gives me new hope, new love and new perspectives again.
I'll always be thankful for our Merlin-years. And I'll always look forward to visit our castle of dreams in Pierrefonds, France, or take the opportunity to meet one of our beloved cast members at a convention or something like that.
But tbh... I had no idea that my love for any kind of a series could possibly go deeper. But it DOES. And it was, again, my beloved Rogi37 who brought me to it. At least, she was the one who first mentioned it towards me. And out of curiosity I started to watch "The 100" and BOOM... I never loved another - or something like that... Wasn't that Arthur's words?
I'll always love the Arthurian Legend itself, or Arthur Pendragon for that matter. It's part of my inner self. Of my very soul. It was long before BBC's Merlin. And it will be, when this show will be forgotten. But "The 100"... inspires me in a very different, very... realistic kind of way. Although it's set in an alternative universe, it's a far more tangible story for me. The characters are very real with down to earth problems. There's no such thing as solely good, and no solely bad. Every figure has so many layers. That's what makes it so attractive for me. Not to mention Bob Morley's acting skills. His portrayal of Bellamy Blake completely and utterly captured me. It touches my heart in a way, a dorky Arthur Pendragon never could. Hard to say so, but the plain truth. The dorkiness... never appealed to me in the first place. That's what made the whole Merlin-adventure so hard for me to watch in the end. A King Arthur who's dorking around... Wth... (This excludes the BTS-material of course. I always LOVED our cast-dudes and their playfulness on set! This will never change.) But I love the... seriousness of "The 100". This makes it far more exciting for me.
And Bob Morley... completely owns my everything now. Can't help it. It was the first time, that I fell in love with someone/an actor for his skills first. And then, and very strongly, for his handsomeness. His freckles. His hairrrr. His lips... His... EVERYTHING... He's such an amazing actor and I'm constantly stunned by his skills. I never made that kind of experience before. Because... well... Some people are born with it, some not. And this is kind of a gift he has. I'm so happy he's decided to share it with us, to show it to us. Hope to see far more about him in future.
So now I'm looking forward to visit the Polaris-Con in Frankfurt in June this year. I'm so excited to meet my new lovelies! To say to Bobby, how much his acting inspires me! To draw again! To even write again! Never thought I could do this again tbh... I'm so salty... And I'm so thankful he exists...
Thanks to whomever, I'm kinda living and fangirling again. I'm happy. And hopefully, there will be more love for me in the future.
See ya, guys!